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When I started working, a lot of my friends had asked me why not rent an apartment along with some of them to save me travel time.I scrapped the idea and thought I’d rather go home to a noisy, lively household rather than sleep peacefully immediately after work. (I have priorities you know.) It is still the same until now. I spent 3hrs of everyday to get to work not to mention waking up earlier because of the same reason. But I don’t mind.

Then last June, my youngest brother and his family moved out of the house, followed by my second brother and his family. They still live in the same subdivision and we can see them everyday but that’s basically it. They moved out. My eldest brother goes home to his fiancee for the longest time already and just spends a few hours of either a Saturday or a Sunday with us. My third brother has been away for as long as I can remember, with his family working away in Japan. So it was just the 3 of us. Pops, Moms and myself. `twas ok, you know. We carry on.

Now another change is looming in the horizon and until now, I refused to think much thought about it because I just might start being emotional and stuff. My mama will be leaving for Japan very soon. She’ll be there a minimum of three months to a maximum of six. She’ll visit her grandson and will also be in effect be helping my sister-in-law get a job so they can save enough money and go back home for a vacation in December.

Which leaves my Papa and I alone. I mean, she’ll be missed needless to say. And now that I think about it, she really is the glue that binds our family together. We will always have each other but without her loud and powerful voice, how can we cope? She always makes sure that we know she has had enough of our antics, enough of our childishness but after a while, she’s the same. The same loving mother to all of us, wife to our father and the caring Lola to all her grandchildren.

In my mind, I have a lot of selfish things I want to voice out. But I don’t. Because they are precisely that, selfish. She deserves this time to be able to travel abroad and be with the Minlay Family #3. She deserves to be able to experience flying an international flight and see sakuras for the first time in her life. She deserves to see her son too who has been away from her for a long time. She deserves this. I know.

So me and Fudra just need to cope. Come up with an action plan perhaps. Then I think, if it is hard for me, then how is it for him? I could not imagine, I may start crying. They’ve had 28yrs behind them and subtracting the years when our dad had to work abroad, they had been inseparable. We’ll cope. Somehow we will.

I’m just sad you know. But this will be my situation when I work abroad myself. I’ll be away from them for about 2-3yrs. I think it’s good we can try it, but it doesn’t mean my heart will break any less.

Hay…